simul iustus et peccator

Wooooow..... It has been soooo long since I've written a post.

So much has happened since I last wrote in June. I'm not going to go into detail of how the past months have been, but I will tell you that I'm not going to complain about them. The Lord is always good to me no matter what. Tonight, as I was driving home from class the Lord reminded me of his goodness. Satan has been constantly trying to discourage my heart lately and so tonight I decided to fight it off with some encouraging music. It was so amazing as I was listening to Matt Redman sing "10,000 Reasons". My heart began to over flow with the feeling of God's goodness. I was so overwhelmed with the feeling that I just wanted to jump up and down, dance, and scream. It reminded me of how God is good and how he doesn't know how to be anything but good. He lifted my spirits tonight and I'm so thankful for it!

I feel like the main theme of the past months for me is trusting God. Completely and totally trusting him. Right now I have The Message version of Matthew 19:26 thats says, "No chance at all if you think you can pull it off youself. Every chance in the world if you TRUST God to do it." I read this everyday, yet I still find myself trying to make certain things happen or not trusting God to pull through for me..... yeah, I'm weak. It's amazing though when I finally let go, even though it just last for a moment, God sprinkles a little light of goodness onto me.

I want to end with something I had posted onto an earlier blog. I love this and it was definitely a huge reminder for me, I hope you enjoy it :-)

RELIGION: My self-view swings between two poles. If and when I am living up to my standards, I feel confident, but then I am prone to be proud and unsympathetic to failing people. If and when I am not living up to standards, I feel insecure and inadequate. I’m not confident. I feel like a failure

THE GOSPEL: My self-view is not based on a view of my self as a moral achiever. In Christ I am “simul iustus et peccator”—simultaneously sinful and yet accepted in Christ. I am so bad he had to die for me and I am so loved he was glad to die for me. This leads me to deeper and deeper humility and confidence at the same time. Neither swaggering nor sniveling.