“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
I feel like I write so much on letting go.
It's the reoccurring melody in my life. I feel like 90% of the time I come to God with my worries, concerns, and questions his answer at the end is always,"Let it go, love. You just have to let it go."
It's never the answer I want, so I run to 20 other people with my same woahs and concerns. But it doesn't matter how hard I try to shake the magic eight ball with people, the answer is always the same in the end.
Trust and let it go.
I was reading a book last night and the author talked about the story in Mark 10. It's the story of the rich man coming to Jesus asking what he needed to do in order to have eternal life. As I read the story myself, I see this man coming up to Jesus, cautious, knowing the type of man he is speaking with. Jesus replies in a way one would answer kids who ask the exact same question in 20 different ways. I bet he had this tone like, "You know the answer, but I'll play along and tell you what you already know."
The man then told him that he had been doing this his whole life. If you keep reading, something pops out that had never popped out to me before. The author of the book is the one who pointed it out to me. She pointed out the beginning of verse 21 that said, "Jesus saw him and loved him."
He SAW him and LOVED him.
Tears. Tears came streaming down my face.
I put myself in that man's position in that moment. Coming to God asking for answers that he knows I already know the answers to. Yet, He SEE'S me and LOVES me. Still.
It feels so good to be seen. To not only be seen, but to be loved as well.
It's comforting to know that in all my rambling and and questions, He see's me. He hears me. Yet, the answer is still the same.
It feels so good to be seen. To not only be seen, but to be loved as well.
It's comforting to know that in all my rambling and and questions, He see's me. He hears me. Yet, the answer is still the same.
And ironically (or not really) he continues on to tell the man that he has to LET GO. For him it was possession but I feel like it's bigger than just possessions. It's EVERYTHING that holds space up in our lives. It's the things that clutter our head. It's the things that wake us up in the middle of the night. It's the dreams we don't understand. God says, "You want me? You really want me? Let go. Let go of all the clutter. It's only preventing you from getting to me."
Maybe the melody of letting go is not a horrible melody to be dancing to. It's difficult and complex but in the end, I don't think I'll regret it. And regret, that's the one guy I've made a goal to live with less. There are going to be regrets at times due to decisions you've made, they are unavoidable but if there is any regret I try to avoid, it's the one of just not taking the risk, taking a leap of faith and just seeing what can happen.
In the end, you won't have the 'what if' regrets. You might not be the happiest with your decision, but you'll be able to walk tall knowing you tried. You at least tried.
In the end, you won't have the 'what if' regrets. You might not be the happiest with your decision, but you'll be able to walk tall knowing you tried. You at least tried.
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