Believe in Dreams

I have been playing around with the idea for a while now whether or not I should start a blog. The truth of the matter is that I am a horrible writer. Grammar is a foreign concept to me. No matter how hard I have tried to understand the rules and guidelines of writing I always end up failing epically. Therefore, this blog will not follow the rules and guidelines that are set to make writing a comprehensible art. So it is here on my first blog that I apologize for my lack of writing capabilities and ask that you follow along as best as you can. I have been told multiple times that I write the same way I talk and apparently this is a bad thing (personally I have no problem with it).


 My insecurity in writing has been the only obstacle in my way to creating a blog. But here I am today, fighting past my insecurity to start something that I will hope help me and others in the long run. Because the truth is, just like everyone else I'm on a journey. This journey has been, well, interesting. Everyday I wake up and learn something new about myself and other people. For those of you who know me well know that I love to create relationships with people. My favorite thing in the whole world is to sit or stand and have a real conversation with someone. I love knowing how people think and what their passion in life is. I have had some amazing conversation with people and have had the privilege of hearing their story. We all have a story and they are all worth being told. I want to use this blog to not only tell my story but to also share stories of others that have been told to me along the way (don't worry, any story that I feel needs to be shared it will always be anonymous).


God is doing some incredible yet difficult things in my life right now. I need to share these struggles as a way to help myself through them. This past year I have been working as an in-home counselor. All my close friends and families have heard and seen the struggles that this job has brought onto me, physically and emotionally. Needless to say, you cannot walk into broken homes everyday and not be forever impacted in some form or fashion. As I have been working with families and listening to their struggles and problems I found myself closing up and pushing my own struggles aside. I've been suppressing my own problems in order to take on other people's problems. What I have been doing is self destructing. The more I suppress my own emotions and problems the more I'm damaging the people I'm trying to help. So I've decided to stop going down this self destructing path and to open up my heart and get all the  trash out. I'm hoping by sharing and blogging I'll be able to better process what God is doing in my life. It has been recently brought to my attention that God is very diligently trying to work in my life. The thing that is stopping him is me. I've been standing in the way, telling God that I'm trying to fix everything. But the truth is I can't fix me. Only God can fix me.


So please join me as I walk down this long road full of questions and mystery. Even though it may be dark at times, I know God is with me.