"I wanna love you more than all of the things you wanted, than all of the things you're not."

Love....... love is magnificent. It can make the impossible possible. I would have to say that my biggest pet peeve is when people underestimate or short change themselves on the amount of love they can receive. The awesome thing about love is that there is nothing in this world that we can do to deserve it. It doesn't matter how many hours we work or how hard we try, we don't deserve it's perfection, it's patience, it's divine way of changing someone's emotions, mindset, or  physical well being. My heart breaks when people miss out on big opportunities because they have allowed the enemy to let them believe they are not worthy of it. 

I love analogies because they really help me to understand things better. So therefore, I'm going to use one now. Last week I had the privilege of having lunch with a friend who I have not seen or spent time with in a long time. She was updating me on her life, school, and work. She told me that she currently obtain a position at a hospital working in an area that will help prepare her for what she really wants to do when she's out of school. She told me that she had put in 40+ applications for a CNA position. She started to become discouraged because she knew she qualified for the positions but was not receiving any calls for interviews. Then she applied for a position that wasn't a CNA position, the position was BETTER than a CNA position, received a call for an interview, and was hired. As she told me this story I couldn't help but think how this situation really hits home with how I approach life and approach God in my prayer life. I'm always coming to him in request for things that I know I'm "qualified" for. I come to him with small request because I really don't think I deserve or would receive something more. After listening to my friends story I began to think, maybe God wants me to start praying for bigger things, things that are better and not just the bare minimum. God is love and he wants to give us all the love he has, so why am I so hesitant to open up my arms and willingly accept it? I know the answer to this question, my insecurity is what keeps me hesitant. My insecurity is what makes me look for reassurance from other's before I make a decision, it's what makes me hesitant to act out boldly, it's the one thing keeping me from experiencing the infinite love of God. 

Sadly, I'm doing the one thing I can hardly stand to watch others do.