Good Fight

I was laying in bed last night absolutely exhausted.

I had been looking forward to curling up and falling asleep all day.

I finally reached the moment I had been waiting for and guess what.... my mind had other plans.

I'm all like "Yay! Sleep time!" and my brain goes, "Wait, I need to think about a million things before we fall asleep."

Miserable. It's the worst.

So here I am. Laying in bed. Desperately wanting to fall asleep but I can't.

I learned a long time ago to just not fight it, to go ahead and entertain some of the thoughts.

But these weren't good thoughts. These particular thoughts last night were thoughts of fear. In my exhaustion from a wonderful week in Atlanta, my mind decided to worry about whether I'll ever be able to trust again and how that will look.

As most know, when trust has been betrayed in your life, it's really hard to stand back up and do again. It becomes a battle. A battle to stubble through the mess and learn to trust again.

This morning I woke up and a sweet friend of mine had sent me an article that said this, "Get rooted in love and comprehend in greater detail all God has planned for your life. You will know what fight to fight and what fight to skip. Based on Paul's testimony, we know he said "I have fought a good fight." He referred to it as a "good fight of faith." What's a good fight? A fight you have faith sufficient to win. That's the one God will set up for you."

A good fight, that's what my struggle with trust is. For true love requires trust, it's apart of the foundation. I'm wanting my foundation to be smooth, to have nothing outside of who God is and who He has created me to be, trust has to be apart of it. Without it, nothing solid can ever be built.

The fight for trust, it's a good fight. And it's a fight he has set up for me to win. 

Hmmmmm..... I love that so much.

What's are you fighting for?