"You hear the cry of every broken heart, You give the hopeless soul a brand new start. This is who You are!"

Last night, I came home from a very long day celebrating the marriage of two wonderful friends! When I came home I was mentally and physically exhausted. Satan had put a problem back into my mind that weighed heavier than it ever has before. It felt so heavy. I couldn't deal with it because I knew there wasn't anything I could do to try and fix it. I'd tried before and it only makes things worse. The problem felt so big it took out what energy I had left. I got into bed around midnight and decided not to set an alarm for church. I just felt so overwhelmed and literally depressed that I didn't think I would have the mental energy to go to church the next day. Though I felt mentally, spiritually, and physically exhausted the cool thing is that I could feel the spirit worshiping inside of me. It says in Romans 8:26-28, "And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.  And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." I could feel this happening inside of me, despite the heaviness I was feeling.


I had decided not to set an alarm and would only go to church if I woke up on my own in time. Well the Lord clearly wanted me there because I woke up right at 9 which was the time I needed to get up to go. When I woke up I could still feel the praise going on in my soul. Despite the heaviness inside of me I remember noticing it and thinking, "well, this is kinda cool." 


I'm so thankful for Godly people who lift us up when we need it the most. I'm also thankful that God is our comforter, he comforts us when we are in need. He also gives up all the "patience and encouragement we need to live in harmony with one another, as is fitting for followers of God." (Romans 15:5). And this, my friends, is exactly what I'm holding onto. There's no more heaviness for me, for things are only heavy when we see them as being bigger than our God.