My Obsession

Blogs.

I'm utterly obsessed with blogs right now.

I'm amazed at some of these blogs I read. I get very emotionally involved with these writers.

THEY SAY MY WORDS.

They say the words I've been looking to find. They take that emotion and put the EXACT WORDS I've been looking for. The words I've been needing to say.

The way they lay their words, oh it's so beautiful!

I picture them write these words. Their hands on the keyboard, gracefully typing out the words. They probably pause for a minute, then continue as their words flow out like a graceful fountain.

They make me fall in love with words more and more.

They also inspire me. Their honesty is so pure. They just layout reality, their reality, for the whole world to read. They say EXACTLY how they feel knowing that someone will judge them. They speak the truth. The nasty, ugly, not everyone wants to hear it truth.

BUT IT'S THE TRUTH I NEED TO HEAR.

It's the truth that makes my heart leap because someone FINALLY SAID IT! Someone FINALLY called out the nasty, ugly reality.

They didn't put flowers on it. They didn't spray it with perfume. They didn't say it in a "sunday school approve" way. THEY SAID THE TRUTH.

How freeing..... How freeing that must be. To live in that freedom.

I'm getting there, I'm slowly getting there.

Right now, the thought of saying what I really feel, using the words I really want to say, feels like word vomit. The chains are still there. I see them. They're there.

But they won't be for long.

No sir, they won't be around much longer.